30: Born This Day

I am officially 30 years old, as of 2:52 this afternoon. Friends and family have asked me in many different ways if I feel "different" or "weird" or even "old" at this point in my life. Nothing could be further than the truth. I can breathe a sigh of relief as I leave my 20's behind. As far as decades go, much of it was a bust until the past few years. If I can bring the momentum that has spun my life around as I continue to grow and step lightly in the mine fields of life, I have no fears or regrets whatsoever, and I am committed to leaving my darkness behind. I have learned many lessons through experience, some of which made me cringe my way to change. I have learned that sometimes, though, you need to wade through some uncomfortable waters in order to make it to the other side. There are no freebies and rarely are there second chances. I spent the greater part of my 20's waiting for someone else to do the work for me, and I suffered greatly at the lack of results. Today, I am quite certain that no one is going to make my dreams come true for me. In a way, that is a great relief, because the weight falls on my shoulders, which is where it should be. That weight is what motivates. It reminds me of the control I have over my happiness, and it feels damn good to not have to wait for someone to fulfill my expectations.