Tuesday, May 8, 2012

After hitting an emotional, moral bottom as a rabid drug addict, I entered a substance abuse treatment center called Challenges in 2005. I kept a notebook/journal with me at all times, and wrote in it anything that I found significant or worth remembering. Looking back on it for the first time in over 6 years, I find many of the principles that carried me through my darkest days still exist for me today. Here are some excerpts from the notebook.:


  • why does thinking about my inner child make me sad?
  • Pain motivates. keep the pain up front- remember it. 
  • "Progress Not Perfection"
  • you are who you were five minutes ago
  • "I am my own Jesus. I am also my own Pontius Pilate.
  • what the fuck is up with all the powdered coffee creamer?
  • i don't know if it is the cold or the honesty that is making me shiver
  • "speak when you're angry and you will say the biggest speech you'll ever regret"
  • 15% of addicts stay clean for a year with regular attendance in NA/AA. the other 85% of us are fucked.
  • "the only way out is through"
  • "for a lesson to be learned, it must be lived"
  • anything negative anyone has to say about me is none of my business
...more to come.